The Second Trimester

Well the second trimester officially came and went in the blink of an eye, I’ll be 31 weeks tomorrow and it seems unbelievable to only have about 9 weeks until he’s here! My baby shower was this past weekend and to be honest, it’s not the kind of thing I thought I would be into, but I had the absolute best time. All of the women in attendance were incredible and the whole thing flowed effortlessly. I should say the good energy felt effortless, not the actual party, because the hosts put in a lot of work to organize everything and it SHOWED. There are some moments in life where you feel so cared for and loved and my baby shower was certainly one of those moments for me.


The nausea I experienced in the first trimester is long gone as are any food aversions. The bread only diet ended months ago and I’m so grateful to be back to my normal way of eating. A lot of people have asked if I’ve changed my plant-based diet at all while pregnant and the answer is no. If you’re curious what a typical day of eating looks like, I posted a “What I Eat in a Day” Instagram story that you can watch on my Instagram highlights. I’ve been supplementing with a liquid B12, Raw Iron, and D3 almost daily, I just got my latest blood test results back and everything is right where it should be. I opted out of the traditional Gestational Diabetes test (have you SEEN the ingredients in that drink?!?!) and instead measured my blood sugars with a glucose reader. I measured it fasted in the morning and an hour after eating 2x a day for about a week, all of my numbers were fantastic. I’ve started leaning towards eating more raw foods again lately because it just makes my body feel so damn GOOD.


The amount of testing on this and that that you get done while pregnant is CRAZY. They did a full genetic test on me (if any genetic marker comes back positive, they test your partner to better understand your baby’s odds of inheriting that gene) but luckily everything came back negative and the results specialist said that I had “the gold star of genetics” which is probably the best compliment I’ve ever received haha! They also do testing on the baby for down syndrome markers or any other abnormal markers and everything came back negative. You assume and hope that everything is going to come back ok, but when the results are in and everything is confirmed to be ok it definitely lets you take a sigh of relief. We officially decided to do a homebirth so we ditched our doctor and found the most incredible midwife, she and I were meant to be. There are so many misconceptions floating around regarding home births, so after I give birth I was thinking about doing a Q&A blog post with our midwife. What do you guys think?


Besides backaches here and there, my body has felt great. I was getting some pretty serious heartburn, but after switching to mostly raw foods it has completely disappeared. My weight gain has slowed down which tends to happen later on in pregnancies because there just isn’t a whole lot of room left in your stomach. But going back to the backaches (see what I did there haha), I freaking hate when people tell me what I “should” do, but I’m going to go out on a limb here and say every pregnant woman should have an awesome chiropractor. I feel incredibly lucky that before I got pregnant I was seeing Dr. Matt Fuller at Ultimate Sports Medicine and during my pregnancy he has dramatically improved my back pain and overall physical wellbeing. He is the most skilled chiropractor I have ever seen and truly takes time to understand his patients bodies and tailor his work to their individual needs. If you live in San Francisco, go see him and I swear he will change your life! And so far, I don’t have any stretch marks and my belly button hasn’t popped out yet (things to look forward to?). Unfortunately, the pregnancy insomnia has been so real for me and I wake up almost every night at 3am and have to lay around until I get up for classes at 4:30am, naps have been nothing short of crucial. I've still been working out about 4-5x a week and just modify the movements and listen to my body.


Although the acute sadness I felt for much of the first trimester (you can read that blog post here)  seems to have mostly gone away, I’ve definitely been experiencing bouts of what I can only describe as a dark cloud over my head. Some days just feel dark. I miss my mom every single moment and although I know that will never change, some days are harder than others. The sudden passing of my mom made the unpredictability and vulnerability of life tangible. I’ve now experienced first-hand that anything can happen. And between losing my mom and being pregnant I’ve become extremely attached to Mark. We’ve always been very close, and we’ve always spent a lot of time together. But now I’ve become obsessed with him. He makes me feel safe, loved and cared for in a way that floods me with gratitude when I think about our little one having such an involved and hands on father. Men like Mark are far and few between and everyday by his side I wonder what I did to be lucky enough to call him mine. 


The best part about the second trimester has been feeling him move around and start to kick. The kicks started out small but now it feels like he could break a rib! Sometimes during my gloomiest moments I’ll feel a little “kick-kick” and it reminds me of all that I have to look forward to. Our little guy weighs somewhere around 3lbs now and will pack on another 3-5lbs before his due date. One of the strangest things has been preparing for a person that isn’t here yet, he already has more belongings than I do. His crib has been set up in our room for the past month and his stroller, car seat, and many of his clothes are at my in-laws house (god bless them)  so that we have a little more time to make room for all of his things. People keep telling me I need every baby item under the sun, but now that you can get most things delivered to your doorstep in 1-3 days we will be ordering items besides the basics on an “as needed” basis. 

Me and my sisters at my baby shower

Am I missing anything? I tried to cover all of my bases here, but if there is something else that you’re curious about let me know and I’ll make sure to answer your question and add it to my third trimester blog post. 

I was also thinking of doing a post called “Words You Should Never Utter to a Pregnant Woman”, the first thing on the list would be “Oh if you think this is bad just wait!”. Just wait? JUST WAIT? Just wait for what exactly??? Just wait until idiots like you stop belittling the things I’m feeling NOW?? JESUS CHRIST BARBARA. 

Oh, last thing I forgot to add, my patience is officially nearly nonexistent. Can you tell? 





The First Trimester

Once we knew for sure I was pregnant (I would say “we were pregnant”, but my husband is not pregnant. And my husband won’t give birth. So yes, this is OUR child, but I am the only one pregnant) I decided I wanted to go into this with a totally open mind and without taking on the experiences others have had. Almost everyone will want to tell you about their pregnancy horror story or how much bigger you’re going to get or how hard it is, etc. And I don’t want to go into my labor thinking about the 48 hour labor my cashier at the grocery store had. There is so much misinformation out there regarding pregnancy, labor and delivery-so naturally I want to do my own research and approach each of these beautiful, life changing moments exactly as they are. This is MY story, I don’t want anyone to read this and think that they are going to feel or think the same way. We are all different and each of us will have a unique pregnancy, labor and delivery. With that being said, here we go..

SO. MUCH. NAUSEA. That is the first thing that comes to mind when I think about the first trimester. Nausea, nausea and more nausea. And the hardest part about all of the nausea is that you can’t really tell people why you feel like shit all of the time. Mornings were the worst, but calling it “morning sickness” is the biggest load of crap I’ve ever heard because for me it was really "all-day sickness". Every time I had to get in an Uber to go to work at 5:30am I would pray to god that it wasn’t filled with air fresheners and that they wouldn’t drive like a complete psycho (it’s the little things). I was also dealing with a level of exhaustion that I have NEVER experienced in my life. I would drag my ass to work, teach my classes and then go right back home and lay in bed the rest of the day. I had no energy to workout and I’m sure that living off of a bread only diet didn’t exactly help my energy levels. I went from eating a plant-based diet full of fruits, veggies, legumes, nuts & seeds to eating almost exclusively bread. The idea of my favorite salad or smoothie made me want to barf. I became obsessed with finding the best vegan cream cheese and when I finally discovered Kite Hill Cream Cheese I was in heaven. Food aversions are extremely difficult to describe if you’ve never experienced them, the best way to imagine it is when you’re extremely hungover and the sight or smell of certain foods makes you want to hurl. Actually, I think that the first trimester of pregnancy can be described as one long 3-month hangover. Fun.

 I had read that taking Vitamin B6 could help stave off nausea, so I started taking the recommended dose and definitely noticed that it got a little bit better. My sweet friend Rachel, who was one of the first people I told I was pregnant (she had two natural, un-medicated births and is just an overall incredible human being and mama) gave me this Zoe Organics Refresh Oil that is supposed to help with nausea and queasiness. I would put it on my wrists, roll it in my palms and take deep breaths which really helped me get through the mornings I had to work. She also sent me the Zoe Organics Belly Oil which I started using everyday around 13 weeks and absolutely love. Another one of my best friends, Brie (she is an incredible artist, you can check out her art here), brought me this beautiful care package with tons of lovely, organic pregnancy and postpartum teas, soaks and salts. Having good girlfriends in your corner that you know you can rely on helps make everything better, even first trimester nausea :) Towards the end of my first trimester, right around the 14-week point, my queasiness essentially disappeared and I became OBSESSED with the organic fresh pressed orange juice from Whole Foods. Only the Whole Foods brand that they press in store, no other brand has the same just-squeezed taste. 

I also experienced severe sadness in the first trimester. I don’t want to call it depression, because I’m not sure what depression feels like, but I have never felt this type of despair in my life. My situation is a little unique, being that my mother who was also my best friend suddenly passed away weeks before we found out I was pregnant. To me, my Mom was god, she made the sun shine and the birds sing and I knew that she would always have an answer for everything. She gave me life, helped me get through life, and I fully expected her to be by my side as I became a mother myself. Sometimes thinking about going on this journey without her is extremely overwhelming, but then I remember that she is still with me all of the time. My sister was convinced that our baby would be a boy because she had a dream that my mom was holding and talking to a little boy, telling him all about life and preparing him for the world. I have no doubt that she was the first person to meet this new sweet soul and that she sent this perfect baby down to us. To say 2018 has been an emotional roller coaster would be an understatement, but I feel much more like myself again and I know that she gave me all of the tools and life skills to be an incredible mother just like she was. 

Now that I’m in my second trimester, so much has changed and I can’t wait to share it with you all in my next pregnancy post. Please let me know if there are any pregnancy related topics you specifically want to read about or are interested in. I tried to put in everything that I could think of, but I’m sure I missed a few things. 

P.S. It’s a boy :)